In the hours – dVerse Open Link

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Those nights when I can’t sleep

and curse – in my belief – that I

am the only one staring into the abyss

at 3am.

Those days when I can’t stop

the thoughts in my head from eating me alive

and casting a shadow over

a glorious sunshine day

at 2pm.

Those mornings when I can’t bear

to drag myself out of bed

and drag my carcass through

one more day

at 6am.

Those days

I have to stop myself

from giving up

from giving in

from turning in

from tuning out.

 

I have so much.

Food on the table.

Money in the bank.

A heart that beats

so strong, so long, so fiercely.

 

I have so much

at 3am

at 2pm

at 6am.

I have so much.


 

Tonight is Open Link Night here on dVerse, hosted by our stalwart Swedish host, Bjorn. He has shared the story of Sean Michael with us today, who only gets to post on OLN as he is currently in prison, has no access to the internet and can only connect with us through the wonderful assistance of his grandmother, who posts on his behalf, is his lifeline to the outside world. Here is his blog Mad Poet Enchanted – so very, very worth a look. Sean has somehow managed to fund the publishing of a book of his poetry, despite all the obstacle sin his way – he is such an inspiration.

So… my poem is somewhat of a response to his story. We’re having a bit of a heatwave here in the UK and it’s making commuting somewhat uncomfortable – it’s nothing really, and reading Sean’s story has reminded me of all that I have to be grateful for. I truly am, but sometimes, I forget…

Please do head on over to dVerse and dive in – and please do read about Sean.

By the way, I am so behind in reading others’ work – I will catch up over the weekend, that’s a promise!

 

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35 thoughts on “In the hours – dVerse Open Link

  1. I had one of these nights just last night. thoughts spiraling, hours turning. its maddening, but mostly when I DONT get up to capture the musings as they tumble!

  2. I love the contrast presented in cursing something, even though you really do believe in it. There’s such a torment in strongly feeling two opposing emotions.

  3. So much indeed! Great reminder to be thankful for that which we DO have! …and as far as being behind in reading…that is where I usually find myself…I’m surprised to be “on top of things” as much as I am right now!

  4. I am an insomniac so I am up at 1:00 am, 2:00 am, 3:00 am….etc. usually writing not worrying. although lately it has been worrying. Thank you for the reminder of how much we do have, at all the times.

  5. In our household, we utter the words “thankful for every day” having had a number of very serious health scares in the past three years. Your poem is wonderful here — the ticking of the clock and the understanding of the gift of time. And the undestanding that we should appreciate the small things in life — many of which others do not have.

  6. I can relate from my past nights. I was waiting for bedtime to solve problems, etc. Now I still have problems, but sleep too soundly and late. Thanks for sharing.

  7. Your poem could be me. I have those sleepless nights and listless days when I felt that everything was just drudgery. Often I forget how easy and good my life is while there are those who are truly suffering.

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